#179 June 28.

#179 June 28.

First I can’t bear thinking about what I’m supposed to do, then I can’t bear
thinking about tricks to get around that problem, on and on until there’s no
thought of decisions at all, just doing what I want, and what I want to do is
useless, hiding out.

I can imagine being utterly useless in a decade or two — it’s not a big
step. Other people would have every reason to doubt I’d have a decent
excuse to be useless, and I doubt it too. I could probably persuade
people that I really am weird and not just deficient, but the only thing
that I clearly am is lazy. In fact I’m already almost useless and it’s
just taking a while for my bank account and grades and job to find out.

-Eric Boesch

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