#223 August 11.

#223 August 11. I’ve given up drugs and drinking so I can study (and hopefully pass) my orals. Now that I’m straight and sober all the time, I’ve re-realized how much my life sucks. No hobbies, no girlfriends,… Read More

#222 August 10.

#222 August 10. We are signing the final divorce decree tomorrow. tick.. tick.. tick.. There’s not a damn thing in the world to do about it. tick.. tick.. tick.. Did you ever feel like you were watching your… Read More

#221 August 9.

#221 August 9. >Wow. I’ve never really thought about it this way, but y’know, it >really does seem to work out that way. Either it’s obvious very >early on that there’s going to be boinking action / intamacy,… Read More

#220 August 8.

#220 August 8. I had a work dream and alt.angst dream in one yesterday, a well-packaged, merchandisable dream, so of course I have to tell everyone about it. It had a nice obvious moral that I will ignore,… Read More

#219 August 7.

#219 August 7. >If there were a God, then he would just destroy everything now and get it over >with You are god. You can destroy everything now and get it over with, and it will only take… Read More

#218 August 6.

#218 August 6. >most people agree that angst is what you feel in response to the >realization that life sucks and really doesn’t have any great design >behind it. people write here about the echoes of this futility… Read More

#217 August 5.

#217 August 5. > […] i’m bitchy as hell, probably because the room spins when i move my > head too fast Well, that’s to be expected, it’s all a joke, reality I mean, it’s not very versatile… Read More

#216 August 4.

#216 August 4. >Anyway, one day, it seemed, she decided not to talk to me, >ever again. No explanation, no nothing. I called, even sent a letter, all >to no avail. Now, I can handle a “no”, or… Read More

#215 August 3.

#215 August 3. > … Jesus Fuck, either that took you two days to type or you can do 30,000 words a minute. That Liz chick was thanking you “for being you” because to her that means that… Read More

#214 August 2.

#214 August 2. As far as I’m concerned, heroism is the poetic component of taking such a risk. Your allusion to game theory is correct, but to me it’s like saying “A flower is not a thing of… Read More