#365 December 31.

#365 December 31. “Son, I just want you to know: life is a black sucking vortex of anguish and despair, filled with brief moments of false hope and empty joy all the while dragging you inevitably closer to… Read More

#364 December 30.

#364 December 30. > Do you think that you’re the only one who’s ever been alone? Who’s ever > been down? Who’s ever had a depression New Year’s? What difference does that make? Went to a party. Had… Read More

#363 December 29.

#363 December 29. I watched My Cousin Vinny (which sucked) with my parents until 10:30 PM, then we watched 1992: Year of the Farce until 11 PM, when I went to bed. This year I will be 25.

#362 December 28.

#362 December 28. As the group starts the countdown to New Year’s, I sit silently. When they reach `zero’ they all shout. I get up and leave. I go home, look at the answering machine. The zero stares… Read More

#361 December 27.

#361 December 27. Thinking over the last few New Year’s, I got angry and depressed. Angry over the fact that I never do anything New Year’s, depressed cause there is nobody to do it with. -Orion

#360 December 26.

#360 December 26. Loneliness is horrible, but then again, so is most company.

#359 December 25.

#359 December 25. Without owning pain and rage, it’s difficult to trust someone’s sense of what is good. And it seems to me that a person has a right to own that pain and to scream as a… Read More

#358 December 24.

#358 December 24. This really is the absolute end, the final chilling desolation, in which the whole majestic sweep of creation becomes extinct. This, ladies and gentelmen is the proverbial “it”…After this there’s noting. Void. Emptiness. Oblivion. Absolute… Read More

#357 December 23.

#357 December 23. Sentenced to life in prison Cut off from the world No one can hear my voice The walls are too thick I tried once, Screaming until my voice vanished, But that was long ago I… Read More

#356 December 22.

#356 December 22. Life is not shit. Shit is brown. Life is grey. -Steven Snedker