#219 August 7.

#219 August 7.

>If there were a God, then he would just destroy everything now and get it over
>with

You are god. You can destroy everything now and get it over with, and it will
only take one bullet. You have my blessing.

-Scott Hanson

This has been a recording.

#218 August 6.

#218 August 6.

>most people agree that angst is what you feel in response to the
>realization that life sucks and really doesn’t have any great design
>behind it. people write here about the echoes of this futility in their
>lives, about the pain of fighting this void, about why and how they
>manage to find (or create) meaning in their lives anyway.

I’d include that feeling of helplessness when you think you’ve figured life out,
you’re content with your current existence/life pattern/failure
rate/car/job/attempts to change/whatever, and you appear to be acting under your
own volition when *WHAM!* something from COMPLETELY out of the blue wriggles in,
yells “Boo!” and screws up all of your ideas about why things happen the way
they do.

Mother Nature DOES play dice with the Universe. Sadly, they’re loaded.

-have clue, will travel

#217 August 5.

#217 August 5.

> […] i’m bitchy as hell, probably because the room spins when i move my
> head too fast

Well, that’s to be expected, it’s all a joke, reality I mean, it’s not
very versatile and it doesn’t react very quickly, 1000 lines of C code
on a Commodore 64, if you try to look at too much at once it all
starts to flicker. So if you were wondering whether there can be
anything more in life than just the same stuff over and over, well no
there can’t, that’s all there is to it, sorry, maybe the next version
will be better that way.

Besides, we don’t like it if you stress the illusions we’ve made for
you, stick to the standard demos, we’re sure we’ve worked them out
properly.

>and i still feel somewhat as if large people with even
>larger sticks have been beating on me.

See what I mean? But anyway, it hasn’t been debugged very well,
if you do anything strange it might all malfunction or even hang.

-Jay Paul Chawla

#216 August 4.

#216 August 4.

>Anyway, one day, it seemed, she decided not to talk to me,
>ever again. No explanation, no nothing. I called, even sent a letter, all
>to no avail. Now, I can handle a “no”, or an “I don’t think we should
>see each other,” and yes, even an LJBF, but NOT a situation with NO
>FEEDBACK. This ego wound festered for weeks,

This has happened to me several times, and every goddamn time it does
I just turn in on myself and the angst festers into a horrendous sore
and gives me indigestion and shaking hands and the
wander-the-streets-late-at-night syndrome characteristic of mid- to
late-adolescent males.

-Hobbes

#215 August 3.

#215 August 3.

> …

Jesus Fuck, either that took you two days to type or you can do
30,000 words a minute. That Liz chick was thanking you “for being you”
because to her that means that you’re so nice and gullible
that you’ll take care of her while she’s “snogging” with some bozo
she just picked up. In the back of YOUR CAR no less! You should
have killed them both on the spot, or at least made her find her
own ride home.

When _I_ have had that “thanks for being you” line used on ME, it’s
meant “I know you’re romantically interested in me, but you’re such
a puffball that you’ll let me walk all over you and just come back
for more”. If you want to be treated like a human being then drop
her now. If Liz really wanted you she’d have been “snogging” with
YOU the day you met her; since you’re not, then she won’t see you
as a romantic interest. Get away from her before you’re forced to hear
about how badly her relationship with the bogan is going.

-Eric Murray

#214 August 2.

#214 August 2.

As far as I’m concerned, heroism is the poetic component of taking such a risk.
Your allusion to game theory is correct, but to me it’s like saying “A flower is
not a thing of beauty; it’s a mechanism selected because it attracts pollinating
insects.” If I accept the premise that heroism applies to any sort of human
behavior, then I am willing to apply it to the Haitian refugees. In relative
terms, anyway, each and every one of them is more heroic than I’ve ever been.

My point is simply that I do not consider rational analysis sufficient in the
treatment of moral or esthetic issues.

It’s far too easy to use abstract analysis as a way to avoid confronting moral
issues. My reaction is visceral.

-Paul Callahan

#213 August 1.

#213 August 1.

From: chawla@wam.umd.edu (Jay Paul Chawla)
Subject: Alt.angst Frequently Asked Questions, revision 1/18/92

Q) Today I met …

A) She’s taking advantage of you, she hates you, she’s evil, and she
will ruin your life.